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CARD ONE: The Root cause of my issue.
CARD TWO: Why am I faced with such an issue within my life?
CARD THREE: What can I do to heal it?
CARD FOUR: What’s helping me heal it?
CARD FIVE: What’s the major obstacle in my path of healing?
CARD SIX: Advice and Guidance.
CARD SEVEN: The Result of my healing journey.
Using The Joie De Vivre Tarot I drew:
1: Ace of Coins
2. The Hermit
3. Ace of Cups
4. Eight of Cups
6. The Wheel
7. Page of Swords
The root cause of my weight gain is that I don't feel safe. I worry about how to pay for the things we need every day. I worry about my health. I don't trust that all is working for my best. I have doubts about eternity and God and that there is any purpose to this life. My root cause is fear and insecurity.
I'm faced with this issue so I can learn and help others. Ultimately, these weight issues will draw me toward the inner wisdom I possess. It will bring me face to face with God, with love itself. This is not a physical battle. It is a spiritual fight that is manifesting physically.
To heal this, I need to let my heart be wide open. I need to trust, forgive and love. I am so guarded, and I can't remember exactly when that happened, but it's time to let my defenses down and let people in again. And maybe not just people, but love.
I am seeking answers, and that is helping me right now. This spiritual quest is important and I'm on the right track there, but I need to let go even more. I need to stop fearing the fundamental change that is necessary to heal. Again, I need to let go of fear and embrace transformational love.
I think the wheel is just echoing what I've already said. Trust the divine order of things. Everything is already working for my best. Trust. There are forces at work that I do not control. Surrender.
The page of swords represents the beginning of my healing. It is me moving out of depression, away from fear, and gaining new confidence.
At first I was disappointed that I didn't see something like The Sun or The World as the outcome card, but after thinking about it, I think that page of swords is perfect. My goal here is not to be able to say, "I've arrived," or to experience some kind of completion. My real goal, as illuminated by this reading, is to live fearlessly. I've been wanting that for a long time. The page here looks fearless and joyful. He still has a lot to learn, but he is doing so with confidence, and he is enjoying the journey. That is my real goal.
When I was out walking today I did a lot of thinking about this reading. I did some praying too. I told God that I didn't know how to trust, and I didn't know how to let go of my fears, insecurities, and past hurts. I told him or her that my bottom line was I wanted to be changed. I wanted a switch to be flipped that would make me a different person.
The answer I received was that the switch has already been flipped, and now I just need to be patient and trust while the change that has already occurred unfolds. I can just be. That doesn't mean I should stop taking my walks or that I should stop trying to eat healthfully. Those things are part of the change that has already taken place. I won't wake up in a different body tomorrow. I won't even wake up suddenly thinking or feeling differently, but I am on the way. I am learning to trust. I am learning to live a life without fear, just like that Page of Swords.