Surrender and Love

I was so inspired by my reading yesterday that I went out this morning and took a walk. It was a nice walk, and I was really proud of myself for getting moving again after being in such a slump.  I was listening to my music and enjoying the scenery when I just started bawling.  I never do that.  It was so weird.  I wasn't sad or mad.  I think I was just enjoying myself and feeling joy.

 Later I bought myself a new blouse and got a haircut, but first I drew three cards.

The Hanged Man, Queen of Coins, Page of Wands - The Joie De Vivre Tarot

I think it's interesting that two of these cards showed up for me yesterday.  They are telling me that I need to accept myself, as I am right now, while I continue to take care of myself.

I tend to withhold things from myself because I don't weigh what I want to weigh.  I don't buy myself new clothes, and I only take the most basic care of my appearance.  It's that old perfectionism again.  Why bother with jewelry, pretty clothes, or makeup when my body is so unattractive?  And then I don't go out into the world because I'm ashamed of how I look.

These cards are saying, "Enough of that!  Accept who you are right now.  Make the most of what you've been given.  Feed your body and your soul well while you patiently wait to see the changes that loving yourself, really loving yourself, will bring.  In the meantime, get out there and live life! Find joy!  You deserve all of this right now."
 

Patience

Seven of Pentacles - Revelations Tarot

Remember, there are no shortcuts, not for what you are hoping to accomplish. Laying a strong foundation will pay off for the long term.

That deck that I've been hoping would come together more quickly will get done, but getting everything level and doing the job right from the ground up is important. So, waiting for the help from people who know what they are doing is worth it. Even though there is no work being done on it today, I can look out and see what was done yesterday, knowing that more work will be done tomorrow.

Those fitness goals will take a lot of time, and though it seems I'm making no progress at all, the truth is, I'm laying a foundation of loving and believing in myself.

 Patience. Again. Patience. Not my strong suit, but maybe that's what I need to learn most right now. Slow and steady wins the race.

"Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet."
 ~Jean-Jacques Rousseau

"The keys to patience are acceptance and faith. Accept things as they are, and look realistically at the world around you. Have faith in yourself and in the direction you have chosen."
~Ralph Marston