I was up most of the night feeling anxious. Again. I've actually been depressed and anxious since the beginning of October. There have been several major stresses in my life during these months, and that together with my seasonal affective disorder, together with my generalized anxiety disorder have had me in quite a state.
I'm not ignoring it. I've had a couple of appointments with my doctor. My blood work showed that I'm anemic, but that is resolving with iron. Otherwise, I'm healthy. Well, except for this anxiety and depression. My doctor wants to prescribe an antidepressant. I've been on them before, but I'm trying this time to see if I can get to the root cause instead of masking it with medication. I may still opt for medication if I can't find better relief, but in the meantime I'm working with a naturopath who has tested my estrogen and progesterone levels along with a saliva test for adrenal function. I have an appointment with him today to find out the results.
I'm also trying to make some lifestyle changes, so far with some minimal success, but success nonetheless. I'm kind of hit or miss with walking or other exercise, but I know it would make a big difference. I'm working on better sleep hygiene and eating healthy whole foods while taking a few supplements.
I've been reading lots of different works dealing with spirituality and positive thinking as well, trying very hard to challenge negative thoughts. I acknowledge the thoughts, but then I try to determine whether they are actually true, and I notice how those thoughts make me feel. It's all hard work, but it is helping. I could probably use some guidance from a counselor, but I've been dragging my feet when it comes to actually finding one and making an appointment.
Whew. That's the background. I'm trying to get to my tarot reading today, and I will, but there is one more big piece to my anxiety puzzle.