Knight of Wands, Eight of Coins, The Sun - Joie De Vivre Tarot |
I bless myself because I am always willing to try something new. I'm always looking for ways to improve myself and make life better for myself and my family. I sometimes act in a bit of an ADHD manner with the way I jump from one idea to the next, but perhaps this is not a flaw, as I've told myself in the past, but a blessing.
My friends and family can share some of the workload I give myself. I do need to work on asking for help when I feel overwhelmed. This card actually brings Thanksgiving to mind because we are all getting together at my sister's house, but everyone is bringing a couple of dishes so that no one person has to prepare the entire meal herself which has made the holiday relatively stress-free for me this year.
Spirit brings me life, light, love and joy! I only need to stop and let myself receive those blessings.
Six of Swords - Joie De Vivre Tarot |
I will admit I was baffled by the Six of Swords as an answer to, "Who can I bless right now?" I see myself as the rider on the swan on a healing journey. Could this card be telling me that by continuing on this path to healing I am, indeed, blessing others?
My inner critic pipes up loudly that this is just a selfish justification to avoid making extra efforts on the behalf of others right now, but if I'm being honest I'm still having trouble just taking care of myself and my kids every day. Maybe this is advice to let myself get to the other side of this transition before I add more to my plate. It seems like I should be there by now, but I'm not, and as disappointed in myself as I can be about that, I need to give myself permission to take the time I need and most importantly not abandon the journey. Who knows who I am blessing just by healing myself? I know my daughters are watching. There may be other ripples like the ones shown in this card, that I can't even see.
Update: After a rough night and morning I was reading an article about Estrogen Dominance and this quote from the end of the article jumped out at me because it seems to confirm the message I received from the Six of Swords in this reading: "Remember, perimenopause is a time to reinvent yourself. This means investing time and energy in yourself, not everyone else."
I've once been told that overcoming my depression and my grief is a precious gift for my daughters Even though they may not look at it this way, they will carry the example of strive and endurance with them throughout there life
ReplyDeleteKeep focusing on yourself right now. In the end everyone will benefit
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Ps I will try this reading.I love it! :)
DeleteThanks, Ellen.:-)
DeleteThat last card, in particular, is really beautiful! The message that your transition or transformation is a blessing for the world is one I can really get behind. It's not just your daughters that you can be a role model for, either. With your Project Me blog, you inspired both myself and Eowyn, and those are just the people I know of :) Happy Thanksgiving!
ReplyDeleteThanks for that! It's crazy that I feel like I need permission to take care of myself without feeling guilty, but it's a relief to hear someone tell me it's okay, and maybe even more than okay but a good thing for everyone.
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