|King of Cups, Six of Swords - Joie De Vivre Tarot|
I keep a pretty tight lid on my emotions most of the time. When I'm nervous, I feel it on the inside, but the only way one would know it is if I chose to tell them. It's the same with any strong emotion I feel. I don't like to appear weak, so I do my crying, nervous pacing, and angry swearing in private. So much control is something I would probably benefit from releasing.
Interestingly, in this Six of Swords, the rider on the swan-like creature has given up her control. She possesses no paddle and has no way to direct herself. She is allowing herself to be carried away, leaving her swords (worries? anxieties? baggage?) behind on the shore. The water she rides upon could be a symbol for those emotions I'm so afraid of. I need to embrace the change I'm experiencing, trust the process, and let myself feel what I feel. In fact, expressing my emotions more freely would probably make the transition easier and my load lighter.
“The emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it...”
~Nicholas Sparks, At First Sight