Roof of Wands

Last year when we were building our new deck I had some serious concerns about the project.  This year we are having our roof redone, and the same players are involved in the project which hasn't gone as smoothly as one would hope. Needless to say, I have concerns again.  I pulled a card using the Galaxy Tarot app on my phone.

King of Wands

I couldn't help but smile.  Once again, the King of Wands comes up, and it is clearly my husband's cousin who is facilitating the roof project.  He is the King of Wands in every way, and while I don't necessarily trust the rag-tag group of friends he gathers to help with these projects, I do trust that he will make things right.  It is so cool and interesting that this king has come up for both projects, and he assures me not to worry.

Embracing Change

Kerry did a New Moon Reading looking at something she needed to release and something she needed to embrace during the next lunar phase. It was so beautiful that I was inspired to do the same.  I pulled two cards from Paulina Cassidy's Joie De Vivre Tarot.

King of Cups, Six of Swords - Joie De Vivre Tarot

I keep a pretty tight lid on my emotions most of the time.  When I'm nervous, I feel it on the inside, but the only way one would know it is if I chose to tell them.  It's the same with any strong emotion I feel.  I don't like to appear weak, so I do my crying, nervous pacing, and angry swearing in private.  So much control is something I would probably benefit from releasing. 

Interestingly, in this Six of Swords, the rider on the swan-like creature has given up her control.  She possesses no paddle and has no way to direct herself.  She is allowing herself to be carried away, leaving her swords (worries? anxieties? baggage?) behind on the shore.  The water she rides upon could be a symbol for those emotions I'm so afraid of.  I need to embrace the change I'm experiencing, trust the process, and let myself  feel what I feel.  In fact, expressing my emotions more freely would probably make the transition easier and my load lighter.

“The emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it...”
~Nicholas Sparks, At First Sight

Signs Point to, "Yes."

Using the Galaxy Tarot app on my phone I pulled some cards asking the question, "Now that I've begun to establish some new, healthier habits, can I expect to be successful with my weight loss efforts this time around?"

Queen of Pentacles, Ace of Pentacles, Four of Wands Reversed

The Queen of Pentacles represents me and the way I've been nurturing myself in the last couple of months.  I've been eating healthier foods, some straight from my garden, and I've been taking time to relax in the sun because that always improves my mood. I've been trying to move a little more, and I've bought some new, better fitting clothes which makes me feel so much better about myself.  Besides taking care of my physical self, I've really been working on accepting and loving myself just as I am, and I'm making progress there too.

The Ace of Pentacles represents, I believe, this new plan I have for my diet.  I feel really hopeful that this can work for me.  I'm looking at the path before me, and off in the distance is a gate that leads to my promised land of good health and fitness. There is, indeed, great potential for success if I follow that path.

I'm not sure how to interpret the Four of Wands reversed.  Maybe I need to be aware of some things in my environment here at home that aren't supporting me in reaching my goals.  Maybe it just speaks about the fact that I'm prone to becoming overwhelmed here at home with the housework, making sure everyone is cared for, planning and cooking meals for everyone.  Yes, being a mom is overwhelming sometimes, and it does make focusing on my own fitness goals challenging. 

So, I think overall this reading is telling me that, yes, I could very well be successful this time around, but I do need to find a way to balance my needs with those of my family in order to create a supportive environment for me to continue to nurture myself.