My sleep cycle is totally out of whack too. I am unable to fall asleep before 4 or 5 am, and have been sleeping past 1 pm. I've always been a night owl, but when I was sick, so were my kids, and one child, in particular, had a lot of trouble sleeping at night, so instead of resting and recovering, I was up all night with her. I'm sure that didn't help.
Today I forced myself to get up at 10 am, and yesterday I managed to go grocery shopping, which I don't think I've done since before Christmas. I'm serious about GMST. I'm tired of just existing, getting fatter and more tired, watching other people live while I distract myself with meaningless mundanities while time passes. (I do love a good bit of drama every now and then, as evidenced by that last sentence, but what I wrote is not untrue.)
"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live."
So, today I'm asking the cards if it's time to go to the doctor or if I will be able to proceed with my plan to de-herimitize myself. Is my health in need of professional attention? How about my mental health? Do I need medication to shake this depression or can I do it with better self-care and an attitude adjustment? (I've gone both routes with success in the past.)
|The Devil, Five of Pentacles, Ace of Swords - Tarot of the Magical Forest|
I turned over the middle card first, which represents my current state. Oh my. I have to chuckle because it just really couldn't be more literal, could it? I'm here in the dead of Winter, lamenting the cold, dark days, feeling like the sun will never shine again. This little fox, obviously is not completely healthy with her bandaged leg. She needs a cane to walk, and her worried spouse holds her up and supports her, just like me. This just makes me smile. So,...true!
Next I turned over The Devil. This is a past influence that is affecting me now. Well, yeah. Again, true. I've been eating too much, drinking too much, sitting on the computer too much, and sleeping too much. I've been feeling powerless to help myself. It is exactly what has brought me to my current state.
But I'm going to be okay. The next card is my outcome. An attitude adjustment is definitely called for. By the power of my will I can overcome my current situation. I am the one in control of this, and I need wake up and really own that.
This is a really good reading for me. I feel inspired and empowered. It's just the kind of in-your-face, honest pep talk that I needed this morning.
"You have a very powerful mind that can make anything happen as long as you keep yourself centered."
~Dr. Wayne W. Dyer