In My Coccon

I'm still pulling a card each day, but I haven't posted because I keep pulling the same cards.  The six of swords, the four of swords, and the hanged man are the cards I have pulled two or three times each. 

That is telling me that I am in transition, but that transition requires less activity and striving and more rest, patience, and introspection.  So, my hibernation continues.

Hang In There, Baby.

The Hanged Man - Joie De Vivre Tarot

This has been a rough week for me.  I breathed a sigh of relief when I drew this card.  It seemed to say, "Hang in there baby!  You don't have to make any big moves right now, just rest in yourself for a while." 

 

Surrender and Love

I was so inspired by my reading yesterday that I went out this morning and took a walk. It was a nice walk, and I was really proud of myself for getting moving again after being in such a slump.  I was listening to my music and enjoying the scenery when I just started bawling.  I never do that.  It was so weird.  I wasn't sad or mad.  I think I was just enjoying myself and feeling joy.

 Later I bought myself a new blouse and got a haircut, but first I drew three cards.

The Hanged Man, Queen of Coins, Page of Wands - The Joie De Vivre Tarot

I think it's interesting that two of these cards showed up for me yesterday.  They are telling me that I need to accept myself, as I am right now, while I continue to take care of myself.

I tend to withhold things from myself because I don't weigh what I want to weigh.  I don't buy myself new clothes, and I only take the most basic care of my appearance.  It's that old perfectionism again.  Why bother with jewelry, pretty clothes, or makeup when my body is so unattractive?  And then I don't go out into the world because I'm ashamed of how I look.

These cards are saying, "Enough of that!  Accept who you are right now.  Make the most of what you've been given.  Feed your body and your soul well while you patiently wait to see the changes that loving yourself, really loving yourself, will bring.  In the meantime, get out there and live life! Find joy!  You deserve all of this right now."
 

It's Just That Simple

Okay, one more spread about how to get my butt in gear. This is getting tiresome, even for me. I did a past/present/future spread about accomplishing my goals, more specifically losing weight, because that is the issue that has me the most unhappy.

Four of Swords, Two of Swords, Knight of Coins - The Joie De Vivre Tarot

The time for reflecting is over.  Self-reflection is all well and good, but not when it's being used as an excuse to avoid taking action.  It is time to make a choice, and while this choice may seem hard, you know exactly what you need to do.  If you make the choice and follow through, you will succeed.  Nothing can stop you, but the choice is yours.

Argh!  Yes, I know this, but where will I get the strength, the determination, the self-discipline I need to make the necessary changes?

The Hanged Man

If you are waiting for a magic pill that will make you feel like exercising and making healthy food choices, you will be waiting for a very long time. The choice is yours.  Until then, you might as well get comfy hanging in suspension.

Okay, Okay.  I'm getting the picture.  What next?

Treat yourself with compassion while you take care of yourself in a way that will manifest the changes you want to see.  Nourish your body and feed your soul.  You have the resources you need to do this.  Take a steady, balanced approach, and reach out to others for support.  LOVE YOURSELF!