|Queen of Pentacles - Tarot of the Magical Forest|
When I draw the Queen of Pentacles for myself I always think of taking care of my family, but the queen from this deck really captures what I am feeling today when I look at her. Doesn't she look a little tired, the way she is sort of hunched over her large coin? The coin almost looks heavy, like she is struggling to hold onto it, or maybe I am projecting just a bit. Ha!
I looked through this journal at all of the other times the Queen of Pentacles has come up for me, and it is so interesting to look back at the patterns I create for myself. I can also see growth in myself. I accept myself more unconditionally now. I notice when my self care is lacking more quickly, which is the message the Queen of Pentacles has for me today.
In the last few months I've worked hard to take care of myself by eating well, taking daily walks, working with my doctor and naturopath, addressing anemia and a hormonal imbalance with supplements and bio-identical progesterone. I've been taking time for myself to read, listen to soul nourishing podcasts and journal.
That attention to my self care pulled me out of a major depressive episode, and I'm feeling so much better than I was three months ago, but in the last couple of weeks I've let my self care slide. I've forgotten to take my vitamins more times than not, and it's been over a week since I took a walk. I'm noticing less energy and it's affecting my ability to do the things around the house and for my family that I was getting done easily before.
So, thanks, you foxy but tired-looking queen, for reminding me that it's time to go back to doing what works.
“Love yourself first, and everything else falls in line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world.” – Lucille Ball