|Seven of Swords, The Lovers, Queen of Pentacles - The Gilded Tarot|
The week started out with me feeling extremely uncomfortable. Some weirdness that is swirling around with my larger circle of friends was causing a very close friend of mine to behave in a way that was confusing and hurt me. I was afraid to have a conversation about it and was trying hard to just ignore the situation or maybe even walk away from the friendship if things didn't change. My inner wisdom was screaming that this was not the way to approach the situation, but fear was telling me to say nothing and distance myself instead.
I did eventually listen to wisdom and love instead of fear and started a conversation simply by saying, "What's going on?" This is when I learned about some of the drama that has been happening, of which I was only vaguely aware. I was also able to explain my own part in it or what looked like my part, (misunderstandings, ugh!) which I think eased some of my friend's hurt feelings. So, the two of us are in good shape even if our larger circle of mutual friends is still broken. I do wish I could fix that because I think many, many misunderstandings, old and new, are causing the rift, but that is something that is not mine to fix.
The week ends with me reflecting on how I am taking better care of myself lately, which would include facing an uncomfortable relationship problem that was causing me much stress, eating more healthfully, and playing hostess to some wonderful friends for a Rock Band party at the beginning of the week. I'm suddenly noticing a crack in the darkness letting some light shine in, and that is a very nice feeling.