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| Seven of Swords, The Lovers, Queen of Pentacles - The Gilded Tarot |
The week started out with me feeling extremely uncomfortable. Some weirdness that is swirling around with my larger circle of friends was causing a very close friend of mine to behave in a way that was confusing and hurt me. I was afraid to have a conversation about it and was trying hard to just ignore the situation or maybe even walk away from the friendship if things didn't change. My inner wisdom was screaming that this was not the way to approach the situation, but fear was telling me to say nothing and distance myself instead.
I did eventually listen to wisdom and love instead of fear and started a conversation simply by saying, "What's going on?" This is when I learned about some of the drama that has been happening, of which I was only vaguely aware. I was also able to explain my own part in it or what looked like my part, (misunderstandings, ugh!) which I think eased some of my friend's hurt feelings. So, the two of us are in good shape even if our larger circle of mutual friends is still broken. I do wish I could fix that because I think many, many misunderstandings, old and new, are causing the rift, but that is something that is not mine to fix.
The week ends with me reflecting on how I am taking better care of myself lately, which would include facing an uncomfortable relationship problem that was causing me much stress, eating more healthfully, and playing hostess to some wonderful friends for a Rock Band party at the beginning of the week. I'm suddenly noticing a crack in the darkness letting some light shine in, and that is a very nice feeling.
Beautiful! Glad to hear that you were able to start mending at least one part of the circle. And especially that you are allowing light into your world! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks! :-)
DeleteIt sounds like a tough week! It's very good, though, that you were able to see things more clearly and begin to take care of some very big issues this week. The Lovers, as a major, would indicate to me that what you did as a healing act in your friend relationships is also important to your higher relationship with universal harmony,something that made you feel healed on a higher level. Hey, how about a link-back to my blog? :)
ReplyDeleteIt was a tough week, and you are absolutely right about the healing in my higher relationship. For the past 6 years I've had a sort of post traumatic stress thing going on as far as relationships go. An important relationship ended for me after a very minor thing that should have been easy to talk about. What I didn't realize was that I was dealing with someone with a pretty serious personality disorder. Since then, though, I've been so afraid of a repeat that I have avoided having conversations with friends that need to be had, keeping the peace no matter the cost. This week I felt more like myself again, which is upfront and honest, accepting, willing to forgive, and moving back toward being able to trust the people I love to do the same.
Deleteby link back do you mean a link in a blogroll on the sidebar here? I don't have one, yet, but it would be my pleasure to add you to one. I'll stick one on there soon! :-)
Well, I just mean, could you mention me in the blog entry itself with a link to the entry you're responding to -- http://www.rowantarot.blogspot.co.uk/2013/05/week-in-review-faerie-tarot.html
DeleteI know, cheeky isn't it! :)
I'm so glad you are feeling better!
Oh, gotcha! Sure thing!
DeleteAh, now I see what you were alluding to with the poisonous friendship comments on the Lenormand readings. Really glad you were able to start working some of it out. Sometimes I get so nervous about a conversation, and then actually it's far easier than I feared... :)
ReplyDeleteThat was exactly the case this time around. I was bringing a lot of past trauma into the conversation. (I wrote a bit about it in my comment to Carla above.)
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DeleteAh yes, I see what you mean about the past trauma. How great that with this one conversation you were working on healing not just that friendship, but also yourself :)
DeleteI hope this week ends up being easier for you. There were a crapload of intense eclipses in the past month and I think it was tiring for all. Hope June brings much goodness to you.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
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