|Ten of Pentacles - Revelations Tarot|
Wednesday, March 8, 2017
Tuesday, March 7, 2017
|5 of Pentacles Reversed - Revelations Tarot|
Monday, March 6, 2017
|Five of Cups - Revelations Tarot|
Instead of beating yourself up for mistakes of the past or crying over your empty cups, hold onto what you have and move on. This card is the reason I came home and made a healthy lunch instead of buying a Polish sausage and diet coke after my Costco shopping trip.
I decided not to shoot the second arrow.
Friday, March 3, 2017
|Ace of Swords-Joie De Vivre Tarot|
For about a minute today I let myself feel bad about not having achieved certain goals in my life. I had that familiar feeling of resignation while telling myself this is it. This is my life. No point in reaching higher, might as well accept the status quo. It's not a bad status quo, after all, could certainly be worse. I shrugged that off and reminded myself of other women decades older than I am who were still growing, leaning, and doing amazing things.
Today I'm letting myself dream.
“You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.” ~ C.S. Lewis
Thursday, March 2, 2017
|Six of Cups - Joie De Vivre Tarot|
If it were up to me I'd have my husband watch do-it-yourself videos and learn how to do the job and just get it done. Notice how I said I'd have my husband do that. If I think about actually watching and learning myself and then rolling up my sleeves and doing the work I feel completely overwhelmed, and I know this is how my husband feels too.
I got the news about the cost of the project right after waking up from a depressing dream. I dreamed I had gained forty pounds overnight. I kept getting back on the scale, and every time I did the number was still too high. One time when I got on the scale I noticed a woman behind me pulling down on my clothes to add weight to the scale. Oprah appeared in the dream and was watching me get on the scale over and over again. I just could not accept the number that kept coming up. I have been trying to lose weight, and the things that worked for me before are not working now. I'm having more trouble than I ever have. Clearly, this is bothering me a lot.
Between the expense of fixing the bathroom and my frustration with not losing weight despite being careful about my diet, I'm feeling a bit down. The six of cups is telling me to continue to do what has worked in the past and to be honest with myself about my current situation. There are other things I could be doing better. I've been a lot less active lately, for example. It sure was nice when someone else was in charge of worrying about expenses and I could eat whatever I wanted and play all day without a care in the world, but now I am the adult. It's not easy, but it does have it's benefits as well.
“O, to be sure, we laugh less and play less and wear uncomfortable disguises like adults, but beneath the costume is the child we always are, whose needs are simple, whose daily life is still best described by fairy tales.” ~ Leo Rosten